In the last 6 months or so you may know that Sir has refined the art of the Banana Lounge Lizard... interspersed with the last remnants of Sir's mum's estate, getting married, mowing the lawn, a daily walk and general hours of house and Proto-Doctor maintenance. Its been a real breeze of a time.

Well, yesterday Sir had the privilege of sending off the thesis emendations and henceforth have a wife whom is a real one, and Sir is no longer in the position of phD widow. Hurrah!!

The other big hurrah type is probably known to you. It comes slowly, from a place of great depth and usually some form of grief. It creeps up on us in our dreams at first.... , mine were fairly literal and strangely soul burning dreams of Jacqueline DuPre, playing in a cheesy sound stage set, playing with the MSO etc etc, you get it. In Sir's case it manifested its self as "Christ! I can't spend the next 3 weeks of my summer holidays playing Tomb Raider every day!!" Sir realised that even though her mastery of Lara Croft's triple back flip and remarkable skill in reaching relics in a time trial rivaled any 12 year old titty raider fiend... sigh, the sad truth is that Sir cannot share this with her grown up friends and stay a respected member of her chosen family.

Yesterday, Sir went to visit a dear friend who is struggling to finish her phD. We listed to music, ate and played with the pug puppy who was also visiting. Then she suggested that Sir borrow her Bodhran. As Sir was attempting to play this crazy Celtic beast she realised what She needed to do. Her soul needed feeding, desperately.

Now Sir has a beautiful new creature who will need a few months of playing in until Sir can get the new, better set of strings. Maybe later this year Sir can trade her up to a more professiona model. Far from 30 year ago when Sir first picked up the Violin, and many years of wanting to wring it's scrawny neck, she is delighting in the body memories of playing the Suzuki Method, but for 'Cello. Happiness. My soul as woken up and wants to be fed.

Moments like this make Sir remember that there is more to life on the inside as well as the outside. Not too long now until the teaching begins again. Sir got in just in time....

4 out of 6 ain't bad

The statistics are in:

Four month out of six unpaid from the salt mine. 

Emergency teaching experiences amount to six high schools, two special schools and one primary school.

Phone calls from teaching agency: 103.

Days Sir refused to answer the phone: 7.

House moves: 1.

Holidays: 1.

Wedding: 1.

Boxes destroyed for recycling: 54.

Nights spent awake with the cat and the fish: 23.

Days off spent staring at the garden/wall/open page of a book: unrecorded.

The official press release will state that Sir had a good rest over the second half of the year, moved into the suburbs and prepared for the inevitable return to work in January 2010. 

Reality: Emergency teaching really sucks balls. Apart from the expected inconvenience of the early morning phone call, the mystery flight type caffeinated morning drive and the ratty testy kids... it was the other teachers that made it absolutely horrid. Sir was blown away by behaviour that ranged from being passively ignored to being cornered and questioned about her ethnic background, classroom management experience, wages and appearance. Emergency teachers are assumed to be either stoopid, incompetent or graduates with no experience. Whatever.

Luckily for Sir, there is an ongoing position waiting in the heart of the West next year. Despite the salt mine shambles that Sir heard about in the St Albans KFL from an unexpected run in with a colleague, relief floods her synapses where the helplessness of the young graduate or the UK working visa has been palpable. Desperation shows on their faces and grows as the days to terms end grow fewer and longer. Time to go home? Soon.

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As of July, there were few places that Sir felt might be worse than the salt mine. Complacency and lack of motivation was mistaken for, as it often can be, a workplace without meaning, a teacher without a heart, students with no connection. Despite the MacMansions that surround the salt mine, the proximity to the Melton Highway where the slow urban sprawl has almost closed the gap between Hillside and Melton Proper. All of these reservations and small factors have played on Sir's mind over the last half year, factors that have irritated and niggled in that itchy place just under the skin of the collar bone where professional pride sits. 

Sir has begun to teaching casually through an agency. Something very strange has happened. 

Sir is now transparent to other teachers, and a one hit wonder with students on any particular day. The transparency is both refreshing and spooky. Refreshing because of the lack of investment in any particular institution and Sir's ability to just walk away from anywhere scary. Spooky because other teachers not only have no interest in Sir but they are more actively obnoxious to Sir. This unpleasantness ranges from special school leading teachers informing Sir of the recent outbreak of Pig Flu and the effects that it had on schools in the Western Suburbs (OMG did youse know that kids were quaranitined schools were closed??) to being ignored when asking for directions. Or even more surprising, while Sir was working at a P - 9  school down the road from the salt mine, a staff member looked for her second head when she asked to remove a little turd and place them into another class. Sir was informed that this student wanted to leave class and the best thing to do would be to write an incident report. An incident report, coming from a Casual Relief Teacher... interesting strategy.

(Note: both Special schools and the staff that work in them are extra-ordinary places that are underfunded and poorly staffed in general. Don't get Sir started on the lack of suitable housing for young people with disabilities..) 

Despite the general unpleasantness of being treated like a moron, Sir was in the unique position of remembering just what freaks special school teachers are. Worse than being in a *new* school in a *new* suburb without trees, birds or natural noise of any kind, baking on the basketball courts without sunscreen or sunnies on a random warm August day. Special school teachers are even more unbearable than primary teachers (... picture a Mathematics conference seminar where some teachers are completing the problem solving task designed to engage a four year old student and other teachers are either asleep or looking straight ahead with glazed over eyes. Now spot the primary teachers). 

Special school teachers are inclined to describe their intentions word for word while simultaneously signing their actions. They *pop-in* to a classroom with a CRT and and aide and stay for the whole day. They are incapable of having a conversation with an adult. And they are shameless about touching students, both for restraining purposes and praising students. Woah... put your chairs back into the upright position. Dunno about anyone else but this creeps Sir out! Knowing full well that kids with disabilities need touch and physical re-assurance, but.... these kids have families, right? So, hats off to the teachers that work with these children, and the kids themselves. But hats on to boundaries and maintaining healthy safe ones, ay?

Slowly

Things are pretty peaceful here in the world of not teaching. A sense of lightness in the being and a absence of early morning jitters has certainly put things into perspective for Sir in the last few weeks. These photosynthetic beasties are a challenging as things are getting on the work front these days.

As for the things that we can choose to do and the things that are not possible, it would seem that painting rooms, moving furniture, starting an ebay account (with some trepidation... it's the whole packing and posting thing ) being an unpaid administration guru are all in the role specified as executor. Sir wonders hazily, somewhere, how this blog was transformed from a teaching grizzle to a general airing tool, but dear reader it has occurred. Some time in the future.... most probably next week, Sir will embark on the wobblier yet responsibility free path of the CRT. Until then.

Fuzzy friends

The time has come to admit that Sir's obsession with being a Miss is going to cease for about 6 months. Phew!! Being a small furry beast in a big school in the dust bowl of the outer west (yes, a reference made over and over... Sir realises this too!) has drawn to a close for a while, at least in such a serious manner. What an enormous pleasure and privilege to wake up in mufti. The cute green creature pen certainly expresses the inexpressible. Any concerns about identity are wiped away by the thought of loveless interactions with feral children in unknown schools.... and perhaps the school that Sir does know. But... time to relax and enjoy, well.... time.

Coupla dayes.... Coupla Dayes.... beauoootiful.

Thanking the anonymous commenter on the actuality of being upwardly mobile.

Sir now faces the challenge of being downwardly mobile. The time draws near to time off and anyone who teaches will appreciate the desperate nature of the last week in term two before the holiday. Things are strange here in the ranch of western suburbs blues. Sir just read the blog off a friends website and was reminded of the curious thing of beige writing. Sir cannot imaging anything worse than thinking that she was good a writing and, then being not good at writing and not knowing it.

Was it the content? Was it the the strange pictures or was it the almost anal referencing to nothing at all? Sir is confused. A smart friend should have smart friends, ay? Perhaps it is the cruelty of never being taught the correct cultural capital of certain things. Maybe it is because everyone has a bloody website these day.... who knows?

Anyway, in the land of western suburbs blues Sir has 2 more days to go, and then looks into a future of lightness that is the CRT... and hopefully not too much of that! A living must be eeked out, and strangely the feeling of unknown has a curious lightness to it.

Not another bloody Tuesday

Its official. Sir has had it with this teaching game. Exams, crappy kids, ratty contract staff who won't be re-employed. The letters to various close by but not dodgy Secondary Colleges lie in a pile on the lounge room floor. Thoughts of no, not ever, whatever.... fleeting moments of clarity. Would it be bad to leave and never ever return?

Sir has been thinking a lot about identity. Granted, it is the main theme of this blog (she thinks!). Time to go... but what then? How to be a person outside this thing that is created when one becomes a professional. Sir thinks that professional might just be another word for tired, or burnt out, or not thinking. Black times.

Is it a reality of the socially able that being engaged in the endless mindlessness of never ending working is bearable? Or is it that people just get the shits with not having enough money and decide that swallowing corporate, goddess, even worse, state governement spewtum is ok? Its a toughie. But most of the interesting people Sir knows are from many backgrounds and will have a journey into many other planes of being in the future. Sir always knew that the end would come one day. Is this it?